weird mood Why do I suddenly feel like in the holiday mood already?! HEEEELLLLLLPPPPPP!!!!!
My last paper is on Thursday and it's the most terrible paper of all! SERRRVVVOOOOO!!! Damn! Why did I choose this category anyway? To die? I think so...
Don't have the mood to blog much.
9:46 PM
Monday, January 28, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!!!
I know what are you going through now. I've experienced it before when I was in lower primary school. I know that it hurts a lot. I don't understand why must all of you do this to him! Do you know how painful it feels?! Anything regarding my brother, I will not let go. Watch me, kiddies!
Rau and Del! Happy belated birthday! Sorry I forgot to wish you guys. Was too engrossed in revising math. SORRY!!!
10:48 PM
kill sire! Today's math paper was a killer!! Ok it wasn't that bad. Section A I have the upmost confidence. But Section C, really afraid that I won't do well due to that part. Should've more practice. I had a shock today man! I forgot what's my seat number, so I asked the invigilator. I told him my name, and he said "You're Mr Lai's daughter ar?" You should see my eyes man. They opened so big suddenly. And what's going on in my mind was "Oh shit!". So I replied,"Huh! How you know?!!" He said,"Hor hor. Stress liao la hor? Haha!". Damn! Why does so many lecturers know my dad?
I want to complain! CLASSROOM GOT COCKROACH!!!!!! Damn it! It was far away from me BUT NEAR MY BAG!!!!!! Jonah told me the cockroach crawled between mine and his bag. ARRRGGGHHHH!!! Once I knew about that, I began throwing all my stuff out from my bag, cautiously. I was so afraid that the cockroach might crawl out or something.
This is the first time Eileen and I actually talked. I realised she's actually a pretty comfortable person to talk to. Nice to get to know you a bit better, Eileen!! CELEBRATE ON 31ST!!!
SERVO is the last paper now. Very nervous as this is the second hardest paper. PLEASE GOD HELP ME!!!
9:48 PM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Really really trust me. I'll love more and be even nicer. But let me tell you, don't ask me to start treating Wenna nicer. My consience don't allow me to. However, I'll treat others nicer. Hehe. That's pretty late for a new year resolution eh? But at least I've got one! Hehe... ALL THE BEST TO ME!!
1:29 PM
love more Dear hedgehog, you're welcome. Lol. Funny when you said I have so many comments about people I know and don't, aren't you doing the same to me? It's a bit contradicting don't you think? Don't take it to heart alright? Yeah I know it does hurt. Did you like track down thousands of people who commented on her? Because when I went to youtube, I saw many other people saying the same thing as I did. Want to go insult them or scold them? I pity her that her boyfriend did that to her. God that boyfriend of hers deserve to have AIDS or some sort. I didn't say that I wouldn't do the same when it happens to me. I just stated that it'll be more appropriate to scream at home but not in public. Save the friend's face and her own. My life now is with friends, and study study study. As the projects always take up most of my time, including the exams. Lol! I pity myself too somehow. However, other than that, I find that my life is still colourfull. Hey anyways, thanks for the comment! Though it's filled with vulgarities in the first one. But the follow up ones are nicer. Lol!! ((:
If Wenna is your friend, I don't see why she don't even know you. FYI lady, the thigh post, I was talking about Wenna. Do you even know her? Then I'll see how far can you go defending your so called "friend" who don't even know you. Take care!!
Alright. Don't talk about that le.
Yesterday we celebrated my brother's birthday. I rushed down from studying to jurong point to buy the cake. Man! There were so many people in jurong point that I find it hard to walk to my destination. I have to squeeze my way through the cake shop to make payments man. I'm not those kind of aunties or uncles who just push their way through. I say "Excuse me". Can't hear it, I'll say louder. Lol.
Man! I think I hurt my back or something. My lower part of the back hurt a little. I think I accidently move wrong place leh. Lol!! Don't worry. Haven't die yet. Haha.
Since I don't have a new year resolution, I think I'll try to listen to other's advice? Be nicer? Change my bloody temper. I WILL LOVE MORE!! (daxi, your advice. I'LL LOVE YOU!! lol)
12:45 PM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
go find out Lol. Thanks about the ok looks part. I thought you were those kind who find out what really happened first before you go slamming that someone? I suggest you go find out about why do I hate her so much before you start criticising me maybe? But of course, I don't think it's a good idea to ask that friend of yours as when that friend of mine whom she betrayed, she said that friend of yours denied every single thing when asked, as if nothing has happened before and that she wasn't involved in it. Wow man. If there was a retrieve sms thing available, I would love to show you the messages I saw in my friend's phone sent by your friend. Normally I won't speak to you like this so if you noticed, I'm really pissed when it comes to talking about her. I don't give a damn whether you will stop hating me or whatsoever if you noticed. So good luck in finding out what that nice friend of yours did to her very close friend, if you are interested that is.
Oh and by the way, Wenna is your friend? I pity you having a friend like her though. All the best in helping to defend your friend! Not to forget, not because someone else's life is better than mine that's why I feel jealous. I believe my life is much better than hers. So I don't see the need to be jealous.
10:43 PM
extra Not to forget, if any of you want to insult me or whatsoever, please be more creative. All you do is comment about my looks, my fats (lol!). Can't you like say something else other than that? I'm getting pretty bored about it. It's just repeating and I'm not feeling anything anymore. Lol.
Trust me. You have nothing else to say at all.
2:37 PM
little runt It's really amusing to actually know that people are actually wasting their time to read the blog of someone whom they hate. Want to see how bad I'm doing? Or interested in how much hair I drop or whatsoever? Lol! Don't let me know you're in love with me. ROFL!! I wouldn't dare think about that. Seriously. If any of you who hate being in here and whatever I post, don't bother coming in here and try to put me down by throwing remarks which you think can. Sadly for you all, I'm living happily and smiling almost every single day. Maybe you should seek black magic or something if you really want my life to be so so bad. Lol.
Alright I'm going back to studying!! =D
Karin : HELLO!!!! how have you been?! yeah they are really worth hating for. lol. hi^5!! (:
h3dg3h0g : i decided to accept ur comment in the end. must be honoured eh? lol. tats funny, cos ppl who blog r actually bcos they're "bo liao" and juz wan2 pen out watever feelings or blahs tat happened. ppl's prob? lke wad then? irene's prob u're toking abt? y dun u read it CARRREEFFFFULLLLYYYY, then you comment abt it again? she asked me, but i wasnt able to help her. i felt guilty. so is it my prob? LOL. u're really interesting. u sound lke a immature poor little runt. and there. i've put this in my blog. u got ur wish come true. hehe. oh btw, i cant believe i am actually smiling while typing. i must be coming insane. lol!!
Kelvin : thank you! u take care too!!
Diana : wow i didnt noe aries love to bitch. lol!! on the 21st? wad was i doing? wif who? where? haha! it sounds lke i'm interrogating you. GOGO AIRES!!
the mug I'd actually studied like a mad woman for the past few days. Not at home, but in school. I was pretty psyched to enter the examination room and do the AEF paper today. Man that's the first! I guess what was running through my head was "I know how to do the paper (except for the theory part) as I've practiced like hell a million times". Ok the million was exaggerating. A few times is more like it. I really want to do well you know. My dream is to be an Aerospace Engineer. Does it sound rather impossible? I mean I'm a girl. So it's like maybe chauvinism would take place somehow? I was kindda worried when I had that ambition in mind. I just kept thinking if it's a wrong idea to make. Could someone just enlighten me?
Irene called me today when I got home not long ago and asked me about inverse matrix thing. She was trying so so hard to describe the problem but I just couldn't make out what was she talking about or should I say, what was the problem. I feel so guilty that I wasn't able to help her. LAOPO! REALLY SORRY!!! I hope you managed to solve the problem if it was in the paper today. Next time remember to do enough revision ok? (:
Oh ya! You know I studied till 8:30pm in school yesterday? I FEEL SO DARN HARDWORKING ALL OF A SUDDEN!!! Must be the "end of the year examination" thought that kept running through my head. It's a motivation that kept me going you know. Well I feel sorry for the asses who think that they can achieve astounding marks by not studying and slacking their way through.
My stomach is hurting me, yet again. God dammit man!!
I know I've been unreasonable. Very unreasonable, in fact. But sometimes, I really don't know how to be the person you want me to be. It's hard. I feel so stressed out about this motherfucking exams and have been studying during the day like a freaking nerd. All I want is a little bit of attention from you that's all. Care and concern maybe? Is that too much to ask for? I've been pushing myself so hard that my mum's been worried about my health. I know you're working hard too. But I've made it a point to call you when I'm taking a break. It seems like a big task to you somehow.
I hate girls who make themselves look like a "everybody wants me" when the fact is NOBODY wants her. Lose piece of shit.
appearance I was in the train going home today, and there was this girl sitting in front of me. Her looks are not that attractive and she's rather on the meaty side (pardon me. I'm trying to avoid the 'f' word). But if you look more careful at her, you'll find out that she actually took pains to make herself look good. Her dressing, her bun up hair, make-up. She's clearly a poly student that is. She's one who deserves attention. That's provided her character is not the backstabbing selfless bitch kind.
Can't wait for exam to be over so I can start procrastinating. WOOO!!! Must make sure I do my very best now, and then ENJOYMENT FOR ME LATER!!!!
I want to watch House! But the episodes aren't out yet. Jie! Faster download it! =X My lovely sister just introduced me to this show called "Medium". She prolly said it was good so gotta take her word for it.
Rau and Del's birthday are coming soon! And the most interesting part is that they share the same birthdate! It's really easy to celebrate for them you know. But the most suay thing is that this time, their birthday is during the exam period.
Got to go now! TATA!!
Irene : Yeah that girl is really crazy. I cant imagine the look on the public's face man. but its interesting to see someone screaming lke a mad woman eh? LOL! although pity her tat her boyfriend is a jerk (from her pt of view). WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? I MISS YOU!!
8:31 PM
Using Joseph's laptop to kill my time. Doing AEF the whole day can die lor. Haven't even touched tut5. Afraid to leh. The guys said that it's like so darn hard. THEN HOW?!! I feel like just putting my head down on the table, and doze off. My heard is hurting like mad la. I think it's because I didn't really sleep well yesterday night.
Alright great great thanks to... Jonah -- who tried to cheer me up yesterday. I FEEL REALLY TOUCHED. Thank you!! ((:
Jeremy -- I didn't know you can be even more bitchy than I can be. But right on about what you said yesterday. Thank you.
Rusyanto -- I know you all believed in me. I realy appreciate what you said. Sorry to bother you at that time of the night. Hehe. Oh and, thank you.
I know there are many other people who believed in me. So, I won't be letting you guys down. I'll study hard to show everyone I can do it. WATCH ME!!
Ok studying time. Break time's over. Jonah and Chin Wee's playing chess now la. What a time to be playing. Sheesh.
1:37 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Funny thing, if you weren't such a bitch to my friend, I'd probably won't even talk about you. You are just so ARGH! nothing to say. And for your information, your thighs are really huge. I admit mine are not say very thin (i'm working on it!). But hell! Yours!! Phew. I almost had a scare then. I wouldn't know if I didn't notice. You should see the look on my face when I saw the two BIG things bouncing around. It was "OMFG"!! Really, don't wear so so so so short pants. It really shows off your big thighs.
Jiayi, hello if you're here! I have nothing against you at all so yeah. (:
Gees. Need to sleep.
9:39 PM
Monday, January 21, 2008
wooo I've been very hardworking today! *nods head* I've been studying MCT and then went off to study AEF. I want to reserve the last tutorial for Wednesday or something. Heard that it's the killer topic.
I feel so god damn mentally drained. Reach home study. In train also study. WHEN DID I BECOME A NERD?!! I hope I don't become one.
My sister bought this little toy car in Comics Connection. It's really so cute la! RC car. The control is so damn small. And it maneuvers great! You should see it move. Brother handles it so well that you almost thought something or someone is driving it. Haha!
Poor brother. He went for kayaking for quite a number of days and came back, CHAO DAR!!! Now his skin is like peeling! It peels to another colour lor! Seeing his skin really breaks my heart a little.
MCT EXAM IS TOMORROW!!!! I can't wait! Man! I do hope the questions are freaking easy. Or else I'll just walk out and say,"Bye!". Alright kidding. You know I won't do that. Hehe.
If you're very bored and you're a fucking rebellion, I recommend you to watch "The Maury Show" on youtube. It's really interesting as Maury will try to help people in any way he can. Watch the ones about the girls who had sex with dunno how many men. Seeing the way they act, is really devasting. Can't imagine how the parents would feel.
I came across this clip in youtube yesterday.
This girl is fucking insane!! Alright since she is screaming away in malay, I'll just have to tell you roughly what is it about. credits to darul, jonah and raudhah! Her boyfriend I think is seeing another girl and that mad woman found out. As you can hear that she just kept repeating her words, she said "Where are you?! I want to meet you now!!" Seriously man! If I were her boyfriend, I would dump her too! Look at her screaming her head off!! I pity her friend la. Have to tahan her insanity. tsk tsk She knows no shame man. Want to scream also go home and scream lor. Shout in public. Don't think that you voice loud then you are always right. So wrong!
I think I saw HER today. Ok the dressing is not bad. But she looks like a fucking stick and her mouth still looks like a retarded horse. So sorry if I've hurt your feelings. Lol!
10:44 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
sour sour My stomach's been feeling really uneasy. It's the kind of feeling of need to go to the toilet, but nothing coming out. ARR!!
I feel so so so so jealous la! Geraldine actually got to take pictures with THE HONG KONG STARS!!!! -sobs How I wish I can take photos with them too. sighs. GERALDINE! I HATE YOU!!! Lol.
Today was utterly boredom for me. Quarrelled with Jeremy yesterday night. Haiz. I don't understand why his friends can go out with him that easily, and I can't. It's like I have to make appointment first you know. It seems like distance does really matter. Did I choose the wrong person? Haiz. And one whole day, he only gave me ONE phone call. Is it so hard to call me like a few times a day? Did I ask for too much? Or that he just give me too little? Maybe I should just leave him alone. I'm tired of minding too much.
URGH! So emo liao la see!! =/
Hmmm. I miss talking to Rusyanto. He's great fun! WHERE ARE YOU?!!!
Kelvin : Guy one how to find seh? Most guys don't do shopping so often like girls lor. They don't drool over them like we do. HAHA!! Go tag your blog like very extra lliddat leh. =x.
Irene : Who loves school, my dear? Lol! Swimming? God I scared to go with you leh. That time you make me swim until next day my muscle ache like shit lor. haha!
8:58 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
muggggg So lucky that I didn't get up so early to go to National Library (Bugis) to study. Jonah and the rest (except Raudhah) got there at 9am only to find out that it opens at 10am. HAHA!! Is it a good thing or what? Hehe. Spent the whole freakilish day doing AEF tutorials and I FEEL SO HAPPY!! I managed to do most of the questions ALL BY MYSELF!! It's really fun studying with friends lor. But sometimes you can get sidetrack a bit. Lol.
I hope the exams would just start now, finish it, THEN I WANT TO CLUB WITH PURSELYN!!! =X
8:58 PM
Friday, January 18, 2008
laziness Laziness strikes!! I practically fell asleep while studying in school today. Was really exhausting you know. But after I sort of woke up, I had to go back to Boon Lay Sec to ask permission to borrow home a flute. The so far information I have is that the Alumni Band Concert would be on the 29th March. I'M SO SO EXCITED ABOUT IT!! If the Alumni Band were to play the piece "In The Winter...", I WOULD BE PLAYING THE SOLO AGAIN!! *prays*
Man! I didn't know Wei Liang is currently dating my junior. Lol. You know what a ssssllllooooowwww person I am. Lucks to you and her, Wei Liang!!! (:
Argh!! My right eye hurts! There is this little thing below my eye lid. So when I open my eye too big, I will have this little sharp pain. RWARR!!!
Kelvin : The online shop is totally for girls lor. Lol!! You take care of yourself too!!!
Geraldine : I won't blame you if you're cock-eye. I can understand. HAHA!! My exams end on the 31st. Study hard girl! It's the end of year exam. Do well, then be over and done with it. THANK YOU ABOUT MY HAIR!!! Don't make me feel shy ma. WAHAHAHA!!! Hope to see you around, babe!
8:04 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I realised there were terribly lots of mistakes in this post. I must be really tired while posting this.
-edited-
Sometimes I feel that sorting out one's feelings doesn't mean just taking away someone's picture or even cutting off contact from that someone. It means the heart. Don't some of you think that if your friend is still affected a lot by whatever his/her ex does, it means that him/her is thinking about that ex? Like just keep thinking back of what happened and blahs? Tell me if I'm wrong then.
I spent almost the whole day studying MCT. I feel really hardworking man. Lol. Of course it's not all study, no play la. We still talk halfway. Ok la, slack. =X
She still looks terrible even with them. Seriously, more like a horse now. I still thought she would look better. I guess I was wrong. Too bad the money you spent is useless then. Lol.
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CHECK IT OUT! I'm really thinking of buying some cool clothes in there.
11:04 PM
oh woman I want to be a guy! Woman have disadvantages you know. Like we will have the monthly thing. Pregnant also woman. Damn man! Painful la! Why can't god make guys pregnant instead of woman? WHY WHY WHY? This is so bloody unfair!!
I wish we can choose the day for our OOP interview. I heard it was not easy and that we can lose like terribly lots of marks. Dang! I keep having the feeling I won't be so lucky. I'm always so unlucky in tests. No idea why.
No one have any idea whether is there MCT lecture and practical tomorrow lor. If there isn't I would probably camp somewhere and do my studying. Yes Jonah I know you don't believe. I'LL SHOW YOU!! I hope I can though. LOL!!
I want to go clubbing!!! I've never step into a club before you know! Seriously! I feel like a damn mountain tortoise. Go ahead. Laugh at me. I promise Purselyn I'll go with her after my exams. I HOPE I CAN!! CAN'T WAIT!!
It's really irritating when you see others being a hypocrite. There is this girl I know, she kind of betrayed my friend's trust. They were supposed to do their FYP project together and she go forming her own group without letting my friend know about it. (bitch eh?) My friend didn't know until when another fat ass told her. (what the fuck) After that, that bitch revealed her true colours la. She complained to her mum can! Worse still! Her mum even called my friend. Come on man! Are you that "small girl"? So "small" that you even have to ask your mum to settle things out for you? What a mama's girl. Then now, she's like sticking to my friend like glue. And not to forget, she's like a walking parrot now. Whatever my friend says she want do, she also want. What the hell!! No originality AT ALL! I've always wanted to give you a big tight slap. I'm just waiting for a chance to. Don't think that you're my friend's girlfriend, I won't slap you.
RWAR!! I HATE EXAMS!!!! I just want to get over it soon.=/
9:35 PM
Friday, January 11, 2008
The plane can't fly. I guess it's because the body's too long. The three of us knew it very well that it won't fly at all. But Andy just wouldn't listen. I think I practically gave up on him so I just kept quiet. He want to try, let him try lor. But it's a wrong move. We let him try to fly the plane until IT BROKE! God dammit!! He knew the plane's going to crash onto the metal and yet he still put it on full throttle. WTF IS GOING ON IN YOUR MIND MAN?!
I want to watch my hong kong drama serial now! Band tommorow! BYE BYE! good night!!
9:32 PM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
ITP Hehe. I got into Tuas area for my attachment!! It's like so near la. But the sad thing is that I'm the only in class who got into that company. Which means that...I'LL BE ALL ALONE!! I hope the people there are friendly leh. Real nervous.
Oh ya. If you're interested in which company I'm posted at, it's at Cyclect. Go check it online. It takes care of lots of engineering stuff. So cool! Somewhat about what I'm studying!! WHOOPIE!!
Diana : haha. really sound ugly right? dont use it la. LOL
Kelvin : no lor! korea tat time my face not so bad de leh. come back, BUANG! sorry i always pang seh you lor. =x
JONAH, I'M TERRIBLY SORRY.=/
9:00 PM
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
I DIDN'T DO MY FACIAL AFTERALL!! WAS TOO BUSY CHATTING IN MSN. I MUST MUST SET MY PRIORITIES NEXT TIME. FACIAL FIRST!! lol
10:02 PM
speechless I wonder why do people still use the word "cum". Ok I did use the word before to replace "come". But ever since I know the real meaning of "cum", I stopped using it. Don't anyone know the reason? This is take from this website http://dictionary.reference.com/ . The defination they gave was, n. Vulgar Slang also cum (kŭm) Semen ejaculated during orgasm. So please please please people, don't use that word ever again unless you are talking about the real meaning. It'll put yourself into embarrassment and I'd probably be laughing my ass off.
Jonah read my blog and asked if Andy saw my blog. Actually, I don't know. I think they want to see show only lor. I wonder who they're rooting for. Me or him? BETTER NOT BE HIM HOR! Haha. Seriously, whoever wants to tell him, go ahead. Really. I promise I won't get mad but thank you with gratitude.
I want to cut my hair! Thinner I mean. And I want to add a tail also. Hehe. I want to change specs too! Half frame this time, I think. I want to buy clothes!! I want to do so many things... BUT THE PROBLEM IS I DON'T HAVE THE TIME!!
Ok I think I'll end here. I gonna do DIY facial. Hehe. I got the steam face thing. Hehe. I'M VAIN BOO!! But I need it! My face got terrible after Korea. I CAN'T FACE ANYONE!!
Kelvin, sorry that I cancelled the meet up. Some other time perharps? Big apologies.
Jonah : You only want to see show lor! You better be rooting for me. Hehe.
Why must there be exams? Adults will tell you that it's because in that way, you'll learn.
But I want to have no exams at all!! Wait a minute. Might as well no school too? Wow. The whole country would be in chaos wouldn't it? Alright erase that stupid idea.
Life would be, however, better if there aren't any crimes right? But if you think about it, crimes are what made this world into this. WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING!! Ok ignore this whole part.
This coming week will be very hectic for me. I have tons of labtests!! See! That's why I hate exams. I have to finish up my OOP mini-project too. &^!@#*%#^&@$&@
Will you notice me from now onwards? You are the one who gave me life.
7:55 PM
Saturday, January 05, 2008
the people MC King left everyone. I knew of this news on the day he died. Haiz. I've always like the shows he act. It's always funny. And he's bubbly too.
It's all too sudden. He suffered from a heart attack. When I heard about the news from my mum, I was dumbfounded. I didn't believe it at first.
I hope that this taught a lesson to everyone. Cherish whatever you have and don't let go. Because anything can happen anytime.
I don't know why, but I'm always deeply affected by death. I always feel very sad when I hear that someone died. Maybe it's because people whom I love, cherish left me when I was walking through part of my life.
Naini - who died of a motorbike accident. Please bikers,drive safely. Please.
Carman, my cousin - who died of a brain tumor when I was very young. I really love her. Really do. Whenever I go to her house, I would rush by her side right away and stay there.
2nd uncle - who died of old age. It was very unexpected as he was always a jovial uncle and he was my favourite uncle all the time, even now. I've always wanted to tell him how much I love him, but I didn't have the courage to.
3rd uncle, who lived in malaysia - passed away so suddenly. I remember very well that it was on the day of a concert my dad and mum had to go. But because of my uncle's sudden death, my rest of the uncles went over to malaysia to sent their last respects. We went to visit him a few times. Always try to visit him whenever we're in malaysia. I miss him a lot too.
My grandma (mum's side) - she was the lovely lady apart from my mum. I remember my mum cried uncontrollably when grandma's coffin was cremated. Grandma was the bravest and most lovely woman I've ever met. I love you, Grandma.
My grandpa (mum's side) - although he passed away very early, I remember him as a wonderful person. He always has this nicotine smell. He smokes. My mum told me that when he passed away, his spirit came back and wanted to take me away. It was because when he was still alive, he loved me the most. I really wished he did take me away with him. I really love him. oh man! I'm crying right now. haiz.
My grandmother (dad's side) - she lived in my house from when I was born till when she passed away. She was bedridden before the many days when she died. It was really heartbreaking to see her suffering. Her room was like a hospital. It had a hospital bed, we had to feed her with a tube, and many more. The worst part was that my family witnessed her death. We were all standing beside her, with tears flowing down our cheeks. I couldn't stop crying. But I know that it was better for her to go. When she stopped breathing, I couldn't do anything but cry, and cry, and cry. When she was still alive, she used to play with me. That was really the worst part of my life. To witness a death of a relative.
My granddad (dad's side) - I've never seen him before as he passed away before I was born. But I know he's a nice man.
I'm really afraid that someone I know will leave me again. I am afraid.
stupid I'm so stupid. And I hate my temper, emotions and blahs a lot! The things I'd said to him must've hurt him badly. I'm very sure of it. My words can really pierce people's heart if I want to. I love you.
Anyways, I saw someone in school yesterday. Didn't say hi as I don't see the need to and that I wasn't really interested in the person. But I was glad the person still look good than ever. And of course, doing well.
Just came back from steamboat with the WHOLE family. Famished.
I just learnt how to shut people up!! I mean I learnt it like on friday. WAHAHAHA!! Alright I was talking about the idioticguy in the long, vulgarish (i don't think there's such a word but heck) post I dedicated to him. It's a shame he didn't see it. What would be his reaction if he sees it eh? Will he like flare up and take use the thing he uses for dragonboat to hit me continuously? Would he go crazy? Or would he drown me with nonsensical remarks which I couldn't care less? Okok sorry. That's very randomn.
Since I've already told you is a he, I might as else tell you his name as well. Andy. His name is Andy.COME ON TELL HIM ABOUT IT. I KNOW YOU HATERS WANT TO. It'll be nice of you to help me tell him as I would in a matter of time. Hehe.
So yeah. We were having out DIP lesson yesterday and it was flying our plane. I'm serious! We actually made a RC plane. Cool eh? But the credit goes to Joseph as he planned and did most of the things. Andy, was so noisy yesterday that he drived me real crazy. I almost want to strangle him ok!! He kept spouting nonsense and stuff. I CAN'T STAND HIM!! I swear that everyone can't stand him. EVEN MR DANNY LA! Man! He just doesn't listen. Andy I mean. I would really prefer him to be quiet and speak enough.
I WANT TO KILL HIM!!!!
I miss you. I miss you a lot. I wish I could just drift away.
10:04 PM
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Like what the title says and and and...
He's my new obsession!!!
Tomohisa Yamashita!!! *screams*
I'm acting like a little girl crazy about her idol. WHO CARES?!! HE'S WORTH SCREAMING FOR!! Cool, handsome...What more can you ask for? *SCREAMS*
8:53 PM
Rusyanto (Yuan Peng) added me in MSN!!! Ok I have no idea why am I feeling so happy, but it's nice to keep in contact with friends you know.
DRINK MORE WATER, RUSYANTO!!
by the way, during the trip, he drive me crazy with his comments. lol
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