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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

ANTI BANGLAS FOR LIFE!

Maybe we should really set up a clan which is ANTI BANGLAS. Call me a racist. I DON'T FUCKING CARE! If you were in my shoes, you'd probably feel the same way.

Let me tell you another incident then you tell me how you feel. Just place the comments in the tagboard. Be it good or bad. FLASHBACK TIME.

It happened on the 24th of Febuary. Look I can even tell you the exact date ok! I was at near my house there the 242 bus stop. Obviously waiting for a bus. Meeting Hui Ying and Josephine at Boon lay interchange to go Toa Payoh. Mr Yip's house.
Then there was this group of BANGLAS came over to the bus stop. It's alright if they are there you know. I mean you think I care? Ok back to the topic.
They were sitting on some benches and I was standing. I am at a distance away from them. One of them sat at a bench which is nearer to where I am standing. Listen. HE WAS SITTING AWAY FROM HIS FRIENDS.
Then he looked at me and SMILED! That ain't the worse. He looked at me later with the PERVERT look in his eyes. FUCKING HELL! I was so freaked out can!
I called Jeremy immediately!! Sadly, he said he was busy. Then I called Jonah. I was praying that he would answer the darn phone. Well, just as you expected, HE DIDN'T! He was sleeping!! I was scared out of my wits! I was plea-ing for the bus to arrive asap. I was about to breakdown into tears already.
Finally the bus arrived. GOSH! You should see my joyful face when it arrived.

Before all these incidents, I wasn't that against the foreign workers.
Look! They come here to work not to fool around!! You can even see them gathering in groups in the fields DRINKING BEER. Who knows one day they get too drunk and do something wrong? It's very dangerous you know! And look at some of them hooking up to the maids who come here to earn money. I even saw some of them smooching in public!! I saw one incident where the maid want to get back home and the FUCKING BANGLA wouldn't let her. HOW DISUSTING CAN THEY GET!

LOOK IDIOTS! YOU COME HERE TO WORK NOT TO PLAY. YOU JOLLY WELL DO YOUR WORK! IF YOU COME TO SINGAPORE TO PLAY AND FOOL AROUND, YOU CAME TO THE WRONG PLACE. SINGAPOREANS DON'T WELCOME PEOPLE WHO FOOLS AROUND!!

Let's not talk about people who put themselves in such low positions.
I went out with my mum today and we did lots of walking around. Job hunting was part of the trip too! I applied at Golden Village and Toys"R"us. God! I hope I can get any of the jobs. I don't wanna rot at home, facing the four walls. I WOULD DIE!

I have some doubts I need to clear and you, my dearest reader, will help me.
What is freedom? How do you rate freedom? Name me one person who has TOTAL freedom. But let me tell you, you won't find any. Everyone and I repeat, EVERYONE, have something which holds them back in anything.

Ok enough of ranting. If you are kind enough, leave the comments in the tagboard. Good or bad. TATA! ((:

7:30 PM

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Probing

Gosh. Some people do love to probe around into my life. Lol.
Well, I can't stop you can I? I can't help it if you love to. Just don't make me too proud by doing so ok, darling?

I want to work! I just can't seem to find any. Are they snatched by those people who just got back their results?

I LOVE MYSELF I LOVE MYSELF. Ain't enough? I'll tell it in your fucking face.

I think I am getting more and more vulgar. Should I blame Guan Sheng for this? Lol.

I want to watch THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS. I watched the trailer and it seems nice. Rather sad of course but what can I say, it's still good! Primeval is coming out soon too! Gonna catch it. Darn sure I will.

To someone: Get out of our lives!! Our life has been perfect without you. What have you done for us in the past? You brought only pain and sorrow to her. We have no reason to help you in any way. Whether you die or whatever disease struck you, you will gain no sympathy from us. You've hurt me and her the most. I liked you. But when I grew to know what you did, I despise you. I am so disappointed. You never change. You never will.

5:00 PM

Monday, February 26, 2007

Went to the temple in Bugis today with Mumsie. She pulled me there ok. Well, obviously I went along unwillingly.
Gosh! It was flooded with people! Young and old. Wherever you walk to, you will definitely bump onto people. It aint nice alright.
Then we went to OG to find girls stuff. Shant elaborate further on that part. Hehe
Headed back to Jurong Point and ate Delifrance with Mumsie FOR THE FIRST TIME. She said that the food is not bad. Hmm...well, I've dine there before so I find it so so...

God I am tired! Can I blog another time? You cant say no eh.

So GONES!

6:04 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

CNY outing

I went out the first three days of CNY. It's very tiring la. Boring at many times. But NO CHOICE.

The dress I wore on 1st day

The dress I wore on 3rd day

Sorry didn't take the one on 2nd day. Too exhuasted to take.

Yesterday Hui Ying, Josephine and I went to Mr Yip's house. It's at Toa Payoh lor! He move house because it's nearer to his mother-in-law's. Had a great time with his daughter though. She was using the computer to learn alphabets. God she is clever. Well, what can you say, with clever parents comes good children.

Then the three of us head back to Jurong to visit Mr Loh and of course HIS BABY DAUGHTER!! 9 months old ALETHEA. She is the most adorable baby I've seen!! She has taken a great liking to NG HUI YING!! When Hui Ying want to take a rest after carrying her, she will start crying. When Hui Ying start to carry her, she would immdiately stop crying. LOL. Lucky for Josephine and me.
Take a look at cute Alethea's pictures! If you disagree with the cuteness, YOU'LL NEED SPECS!!

See them all, LOVE THEM ALL!

12:42 PM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

WOOT! Tomorrow going eddy's house for chinese new year!!

Hope I won't feel lonely there.

JOHN! YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!! I won't forget you. =p

9:31 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Nothing much has happened to me recently. What can you expect right? It's Chinese New Year.

Out on the streets, you see everyone wearing their best clothes and trying their very best to look good. Even me.

But the question is, is everyone really nice people in nature?

Look around you. Look at your friends. Look at your relatives. Look at your family.
Are they the nice people you always think they are? What if one day you wake up and found out that someone around you is a baddie?

Wake up!! Not everyone is perfect. Slap yourself on the face if you think that the people around you are the nicest and the will-not-do-anything-bad.
I reckon a DAMN TIGHT ONE.

In the past, I used to love my 12th aunt (she's the only christian aunt at that time.). She used to shower me with clothes she bought. That time, I thought that she was the perfect aunt. Well, sad to say, I WAS WRONG.
My sis told me that in the past, before my biggest uncle passed away, my 12th aunt tried to convert him into a christian. MY UNCLE WAS GOING TO DIE ALREADY OK! He was on his deathbed, for goodness sake! My uncle agreed to it half-heartedly. Mind you, she did not seek for my aunt-in-law's permission. When my uncle died, my aunt-in-law did not know how to arrange the funeral. The trouble they have was that they do not know whether my uncle is a christian or a buddhist. The whole funeral was a rather screwed up one, of course. From then on, my cousin and aunt-in-law hate my 12th aunt.

Is there a need to convert someone? Moreover so badly? I am not against christianity (edited.thanks purse!). I just don't understand why is there a need to even TRY to convert someone. If the person is happy with their religion, so be it. Must you go and TRY to convert them?

I hate it when people do that to me. Some of the people I know tried to convert me once. I got so fed up. The question that went through my head all the time was "Must you do that?"

I'm not saying that christians are bad people. HELL NO! I have a lot of christian friends who are very nice people ok!

Ok enough of that.

MAN! I HAD A TERRIBLE EXPERIENCE YESTERDAY! I am so going to go racist!

My parents alighted me at Boon Lay MRT Station yesterday as I wanted to go visiting on my own. While walking at the control station, my phone rang. I was digging my bag for it lor.
Then a bangla suddenly bang onto me. I am fine with that you know because he did say sorry and that he did not do it purposely.
I was pretty mean as I gave him a frustrated look.
OK SORRY! I was searching for my phone and just couldn't find it!
Later when I found it, I leaned against the wall while on the phone (I haven't tap in yet.).
His friend was LAUGHING AT ME. He told his friend beside that his friend banged onto me just now (sorry that it's confusing. Look I don't know their names ok.-.-).
If he laughed for a while, I am so fine with that.
The problem is that he laughed and POINTED AT ME!! That isn't the worse.
He stood near me (two to three steps away), LAUGHED LOUDLY AND POINTED AT ME!
Dammit man! I was so pissed that I glared at him like crazy. The evil stare you know.
GOSH! HE DIDN'T STOP!
As you can see from my words, I am so freaking pissed.
I was cursing and swearing like hell already la!

Must he be laughing at my face and worse, POINTING AT ME?!
Since yesterday, I am so not happy with ANY OF THEM.
I SWEAR TO GO RACIST!!

What a thing to kana during New Year. grrr...

YAY mini gathering at Eddy's house on 23rd!! EDDY! TELL US THE TIME OK!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! GONG XI FAI CAI!!

11:51 AM

Friday, February 16, 2007

The valentine's day I gave rau a rose. Went to marina square seoul garden to give rau her rose. hehe...

If this picture is zoomed in, you can see that my left is red. Something disturbed my contacts.>.<

1:39 PM

All about me?

Sitting on the study table with nothing but only my laptop on it. The fan is blowing in my FACE. It's rather strong for a number one.

Ok bunch of crap. I don't know what else to say other than craps. Well, that's just me.

Much has happened in my life. As you can see in the previous posts.

I have my dear friends I made in poly. But sometimes I wonder are they really my friends or we just used each other to kill our time there?

Alright I know I sound harsh now. PEOPLE EMO MODE LA CAN?

Actually I do not have any real friends. Loner eh? Yeah I am. I cope myself up in the house.

There are many a things the people around me do not know.

I am a girl who wants attention and love. Ok everyone wants those. I want lots of it. Many people think that I am asking for too much. Or that I expect people to give me love and I don't give it in return.
I am also one who cares about what people think about her. Just a bad remark would make me think a lot. One of my ex says I care too much about what others think. And that others think that we don't look like we are together. Actually, it's much of I feel. Shan't blabber about it further.

You see me as a happy girl. Smiles and all. You see that I laugh my way through. Do you know what really exists inside? The pain, the sorrows. All are kept inside. Away from the world but in mine.
When I have problems, I would show that I don't care. I would say that I am fine with everything and then smile. At that moment, you would think that I cheered up. Are you really sure? Look into my eyes and reconsider. In fact, I am badly affected by my problems. I do care about it. And that I am not fine with it. Maybe I did all those to show others that I am strong?
Sometimes I wonder, why am I doing all this?

I am living in a world of my own.

I try to avoid hurting others. But in the end, I did. So much for avoiding.

I always try to make myself forget the unhappy stuff. Wake up the next day or a few hours later, thinking that I've put away the past. I've not. It has just been kept away for the time being.

I do have regrets in my life. Everyone does.
For example, I regret agreeing to be with you. If I hadn't, things would not turn out this way.

My whole life, I smile my way through. Giving others the feeling that I am happy.

I might not be doing that anymore. I will not smile if I'm not happy.

I am all alone now...

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11:44 AM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Replying on "How to show you love someone?"

Yes you did lots of things for her. Cupcake, chocolates and even cookies for her. You don't look at other girls but only her. She is touched greatly by your actions. But the feeling of love just isn't there.

And no, constantly smsing them, holding their hands, hugging, kissing or having sex isn't the way to show that you love each other. It's the feeling you give each other.

When you talk to her or even when going out with her, you two look like just normal friends going out together. The people around you don't even feel like you two are together.

The sms thing is to let the girl feel that you still remember and care for her. Is it too much to ask for?

You are right that lovers should show their love to EACH OTHER and not only the guy to the girl.

Do you mean that the girl have to do cookies, chocolate and cupcakes for you to show that she loves you? Does she have to do all those things just to let you know she loves you?

She loves you and so do you. But it's just that both of you don't feel it from each other. There is a problem between the both of you which you two never even touched it or should I say, solve it. It's called understanding.

Well, it doesn't matter anymore does it? Just forget about her and live your life happily. She has brought you pain and sorrows. You are better off without her.

9:14 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!

For tomorrow of course

9:30 PM

Went for the "interview" today at Fullerton. Its super grand looking la can! Ok so we went down to Human Resource. And guess what? All we need to do is just to fill up a darn FORM and then we can leave. I was pretty pissed off la. Pi told us that must wear long pants. Say until like its gonna be an interview. LIKE HELL IS IT. grrr...

I was totally shag today. I couldn't keep my eyes open for long. I fell asleep like very easily in the train and bus la. Went up to uncle's house to play with the kitten a while then head back home. You have no idea how much I miss him. I made him sleep again ok! He was purring continuously. I was OVERJOYED!! Of course it didn't last long. I mean the happiness part. I have to go home!!

Haiz...I really wish I could keep him. He is Ah boy's son. I WANT HIM. =/

8:40 PM

Monday, February 12, 2007

Shopping

OMG! Today was SHOPPING SHOPPING AND SHOPPING for me!! I shopped from 11 to 9 lor!! Went with Jonah though. Jonah! Sorry for making you go rounds with me and U-turn like 7 times.=x. I bought three dresses and one costs $150!! I was utterly shocked at the price. Ok stupid me that I didn't check the price before I tried it on and place it on the counter. BUT IT WAS WORTH IT!! It's the prettiest of them all. Even my mum says so. Hehe... I wanted to buy a pair of shoes too. But...I just couldn't find one which is what I want. I will still hunt for it!!

THANKSA LOT FOR THE CHOCOLATES!! I love them a lot!! ((:

10:24 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

NOTE

The pictures are from the below to the top. Enjoy!!

2:12 PM

Ok the last stop, A CUTE BABY AND KITTEN CALLED CHUMIL!!

The name's Lucas

CHUMIL!!

The sleeping baby

2:06 PM

The next stop is the day I wore formal and went to Vivo City with my poly peeps to watch "Spirit of the Victim". It was HORRIBLE! If I were to rate it, it would be -10/10. Thanks Zoe for the intro eh. Lol. Here it goes!!

Rau and I at Foodcourt 4 (still in SP)

Here we are in the TOILET of Vivo! Mind you, we didn't go to the toilet for photo taking.-.-

1:58 PM

Pictures

Ok here are some pictures which I haven't posted for a long time. Lol. Rusty la I know. But they are still pictures can! Look Look Look!!

First stop, THE TRIP TO MALACCA WITH FAMILY!