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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I really don't know whether have I made the right decision. When I was in school today, I was not even thinking about you. Normally I would call you and stuff. But this time, I never even thought of calling you. It's like you are not existing in my life. Others asked me why they didn't see much of you anymore? I didn't reply to their question because I don't know how to. I can't feel you. It's like whether there is you or anot, my life will not have any difference. What is happening to me?

8:17 PM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

I, Lai Kar Ling, hereby state that I HATE REPORT WRITING!
Report writing is so damn hard can!
The more I write, the more I feel like I am writing NONSENSE!
Report writing totally sucks!
But hey.CRS is fun you know.lol

10:39 PM

5k run!

The race start at 8:30am for the 5k run today. Pheww! So tiring can! I didn't train for this run so I was pretty exhausted in the end. Regretted not training. Sheesh. Loads of people were running for the 5k and my sis (she was also running) and I saw the ex Mis Singapore. She's so tall. Okay then. Pictures time!

Weet! That's my number!

The back of my tag. The big word SAFETY.

Me with my beloved no. tag which ran with me the entire run.

My supporter!! Waited near the finishing line and ran with me after that.

The other pictures I took with my sis are still in her camera. Will post them asap. 5k run is HELL! lol

11:13 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

When There Was Me And You - VANESSA ANNE HUDGENS

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

9:04 PM

It's all over

Our friendship is all over. It's all over because of me. You hurt me unintentionally so I don't blame you. I blame myself for being interested in you. I can't help it. You are just so different and special. I blame myself for being close to you. I blame myself for everything. You are the greatest friend. Thanks for being there for me and sharing my problems. I'm really sorry we have to end the whole thing this way. But I don't know what else to do other than this. And lastly, it's not about the dream. Heck about the dream. It's nonsensical.

11:58 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Regret

If I were given a choice, I would choose not to know you. I would choose never to know you. Call me evil. I want myself to be happy. But I think i would now be crying inside whenever I see you. I don't know how to face you. I don't know what to do. I want to turn back time. I regret knowing you. I regret being friendly towards you. I regretted talking to you. Forgive me for saying all this. Sorry.

10:30 PM

We pon lesson and went to Subway in Douby Ghaut. The food isn't as tasty as I thought it would be. While eating, Guan Sheng and I emphasise GUAN SHENG said," Hey! What's that black black thing?! Cockroach ar?!" OMFG. We were like almost going faint. It was olive!! The worst is yet to come. He even asked us," What's olive?" We were like laughing our butts off. I can't believe our Guan Sheng said that. I told my sister about it. She too laughed about it. John is so totally right. Going out with Guan Sheng, you will die. First, you would laugh till you DIE. Second, you might get beaten up by banglas. I'll tell you why. When we were heading home and going up the escalator, Guan Shen said to John," You f**king bangla." At that moment of coincidence, a bangla was going down the escalator beside us. We were like so dying of laughter.

Asked specially by Guan Sheng to post this. Did you all know that he thought at first that Vivo City is a movie?!! What the hell! Guan Sheng ar Guan Sheng!!

I am so hurt. Every word you said hurts me. I know I cannot be selfish. I don't even know am I hurt. I am not yours, you are not mine. But I can't help it. I don't know how to face you. I may look unaffected. But do you know that I am crying inside? My heart broke into pieces. I feel like crying but i can't. Haiz...

9:16 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Selamat Hari Raya!

Selamat Hari Raya to all malays out there! All of you have been waiting for this day like FOREVER! Eat till your hearts full! Heck growing fat! make your fasting worthwhile!

After yoga yesterday, dear and I went to dine at Billy Bombers in JP. Delicious! Of course, we were so full after eating the set meal. The set meal included Ben and Jerry ice cream!! Sensational!

The idiotic Xiao Shu! Talk nonsense all the way. Keep repeating the same question when I've already answered her. Damn. I should've shouted at her louder. Regretted not doing so.

When i woke up today, there was food on the table! Then lots more were given! All from our malay neighbours. So sweet right?! We were all touched la.

I'm so tired! Later still must meet Guan Sheng to pass the solder board and cutter. Make me go all the way to JP. What The! Lol. Ok then. Tata!

12:19 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

The sian-ness

Arghh! I cancelled the outing with my sister, her boyfriend and my brother because of the stupid report writing! I thought it was due tomorrow so I was rushing it like a mad person. I asked raudhah when it is due on, she said it is on next monday. SHIT! I rushed for nothing!
But hey! Matrix Revolutions is on tv tonight!! The tv is ALL MINNEEEEE!!!

Enough now! Tata!!

4:15 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Our 10th anniversary!!

I shall not comment on HIM in my blog as he hasn't done anything mean FOR NOW.

19th october 2006 was our 10th anniversary!! Time passes so quickly. In a blink of an eye, 10 months have passed. We went to Bugis Junction for our lunch,headed over to Vivo city to walk around and caught a movie. We watched Death Note. I thought it was okay. But dear said that it was real good. Lol. I can't believe Light actually wrote his girlfriend's name in the book! I mean don't he love her?! In order to save himself, he sacrifice the life of another. sheesh! Enough of that. Back to the day we spent. We walked up to see the scenery. Nothing much was seen, except for the haze and star cruise. IT'S FREAKING BIG! How I wish I could board that ship. We took a handful of pictures too! It's camering time!!

That was the star cruise I was talking about!!

Man! I love sky trains!

That's Sentosa, ferry terminal!

Saw the black specks? Cable cars! Tiny eh?

A ball of flowers

In the cab, heading back home

There is a little water fountain at the sky park in Vivo city and many kids were there. We saw a group of primary schools girls in their SCHOOL UNIFORM doing this(look at the pictures)! They were taken by yours truly.=p

They look as if they were urinating! Well, that's their intention anyway. Everyone who saw what they were doing were totally disgusted. Guys shifted their views away and ladies looked at them with embarassed looks (i guess they feel that they are degrading us, women. I FEEL THAT TOO!)

P.S no underwear was flashed on the scene so it wasn't TOO RA.

Wait till another time when I am hardworking enough, I'll post the other pictures that are in my phone. The time might not come. Lol.

9:24 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

u totally sux.
didn't even apologise and treat as though nothing happened.
you bear no shame.
SHAMELESS SHIT!
DAMN BETRAYER!!

11:08 AM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

BLOODY ASS!

BLOODY ASS!
some backstabber told Mdm Voon that we ( guan sheng,eddy,angus,jonah,delwyn,jun hui,john and me) went to Vivo CIty.
TELL HER FOR WHAT?!
this entry is SPECIALLY for RENFRED LOH,SP,DEEE/FT/1B02.

why do you need to tell Voon that we went there,u bootlicker!
you went dua us, we have nothing to say.
but you backstab us!
what the hell is wrong with you?!
are you that stupid?!
do you even have a brain?!
please don't talk as if you don't even own a brain.
at least use 0.00000001% of it!
it's insulting us humans by not using it.NO BRAINER!
if you didnt tell Voon anything, things won't turn out badly as it seems.
you betrayed our trust in you.
i know i didn't like you from the start.
the hatred wasn't so much.
but this really pissed me off and making me hate you even more!
i know you don't give a damn.
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN TO WHAT YOU THINK AND HOW YOU FEEL TOO!!
adding to that,I NOW TOTALLY DEPISE YOU!
you don't deserve any respect from me. and i don't care whether you need it or not.
i mean HOW LOW CAN YOU GET?

i am going to pour out the things i didn't like now.

for the start, during CRS lesson, you are irritating people.
CRS is a lesson to let everyone and i emphasize, EVERYONE to voice out their opinions.
apparently, you don't give others a chance to say out what their opinions were!
you just blabber on your opinion and most of the time when others are talking, you interrupt them.
HOW RUDE!
give respect to others like how they give it to you when you were talking.
you don't see others talking when you were right?

i don't like it when you self-invite yourself.
i think you should know what i mean.
do not want to elaborate on that point.

i agree i do hav bad points.
i mean WHO DOESN'T?!
but frankly speaking, i don't think i would do such a thing to ANYONE like what you did today.
after today, i realised i am a much better person than you.
say that i am ego.
LIKE HELL I CARE!

you should work out on you attitude and get your priorites right.
don't be a hypocrite too.
it will only make me despise you even more.

8:48 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

sheesh.in school now.boredom flows in my mind.
i don't understand a single thing about DE!
asking me to do the MOD-60 counter, is like asking me to do a test which i haven't learnt.
later i'm gonna have IDEA.
HATE that module so much!
mr caplin is basically talking to himself because everyone else's mind is SLEEPING!
having dance later so i hope it would turn out well.

i feel so shut off from your world nowadays.
maybe i am sensitive?
i really don't know.
i really want to spend more time with you.
i know you want to study.
but a few minutes accompanying me is enough.
maybe it is difficult for you.
it's all i ask of you.
is our relationship falling apart?
tommorow is our 10months anniversary.
i hope it would turn out well.

9:45 AM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

there is this person called anonymous in mr low's blog. and apparently, anonymous said that mr low is boastful and proud!!
what crap! i know mr low like so long. and all the while i don't even think he is!
anonymous have a weird sense of judging people. anonymous, you have my sympathy.
if you take a look at mr low's tagboard, anonymous suddenly said that mr low is not boastful and proud and he is just too sure of himself.
mr low than replied,"If I am not boastful and proud, why did u say I am so? Have I offended u somehow?"
so anonymous clearly doesn't make sense in the statements he/she is making.

to anonymous:if you want to tag someone's blog, do put your pretty little name in there so that others can see. unless your name is too UNSIGHTLY for everyone and yourself to see. then i forgive you. if you don't like the way mr low is, DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT STEPPING INTO HIS BLOG! hide all you want now.fucking cowardly person!

oh man!i have this freaking flu for like the whole day and feeling so lerthagic because of it.
i am thinking of whether should i go for hip-hop dance practice. i am so interested in learning the dance steps.maybe i should go?it would be fun?

i am beginning to love my class even more! i can't bear to leave them! we are beginning to bond closer and closer. as we are bonding, the days to seperating is nearing too. i can't imagine what my reaction will be if we were to say goodbye. i don't think i can even get it out of my mouth. the thought of seperating is just too hard to bear. how i wish majority of us would be in the same class next year (though i know its impossible).

1B02!!I LOVE YOU GUYS!!DON'T FORGET EACH OTHER ALRIGHT?!GOOD LUCK WITH THE EXAMS!!

8:45 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

i'm like so lazy. i am under the pressure of mr low and rau to update. sheesh...

well, i took some photos in my phone a few days ago.but lazy to post it. when i am hardworking enough today, THE PHONE DON'T ALLOW ME TO PUT IT IN MY COM!! heaven is against me.lol.

the haze is killing me!! it's like so bloody thick. the PSI yesterday is 150! freaking high! all indonesia's fault. if they want to kill their people with the haze, GO AHEAD. don't let it affect the other countries. selfish people there.

went to the basketball court just below my block yesterday. wei lun and de xiang is taking part in the basketball competition. it is organised by i don't know who.lolx. jun ren was down there too! but he was not playing. he was WATCHING. he looked so dead you know. then i went down to accompany him. WEI LUN'S TEAM GOT 3RD(de xiang also in his team la har)!!
some fatty almost picked up a fight man. his team won and he went over to shake the team that lose to his. clearly is showing off. that team don't want to shake hands lor(i mean who wants?!). then he want to pick up a fight. jun ren and i were like sitting in the middle of them. both of us just looked in front. dared not do anything.lolx.poor us. but that fatty is seriously terrible.

we saw a few girls there too. i said they look bitchy. jun ren said they look like sluts and want to rape them(is so jun ren). wei lun said they look like a pile of shit. WELL SAID GUYS!!I LOVE WHAT YOU SAID!!haha.
jun ren saw his idol there too. he represent pioneer csc, no. 12. jun ren is so crazy about him. everytime his idol want to shoot the ball, he would go,"woah!". when his idol fell down or kana hit, his heart pain.haha.over-obessesion.

ok enough of typing. i will post the pictures asap. as soon as the damn phone allows me to.lolx.
ok i post liao hor.read read read!!=p

12:15 PM