Just a short update. I gotta research on my assignments you know. Don't want to let others see I'm a lazy bum.
Jeremy came over to STAY on friday and saturday!!!! It was HURRAY HURRAY and HURRAY for me! This time, he volunteered. Knowing that I'm alone at home (my siblings are away, remember?), he came over to accompany me. Now, our latest obsession is the game "Patapon". You guys should really try it. It's really cute la. But I can play until pek cek. It needs patience, AND I DON'T HAVE THAT!!!! I'll be like,"WTF! WALK FASTER CAN?!!"
I failed my FTT evaluation. Haha! I guess must realli study for it. BBDC called me on Wednesday asking me to complete my evaluation within the two days. Of course, the kan jiong me rush to the internet accessible computer and logged in la. THERE ARE NO SLOTS AVAILABLE FOR THURSDAY AND FRIDAY LOR!!! Even Wednesday also nope nope. You should see the look on my face when I see the unavailable slots. So, I called BBDC to enquire. I told them about the unavailable slots and blahs, they asked me to go ahead with the Saturday available slot. However, there is no guarantee that my test date will still stay there. What other choice do I have anyway? And thus, the failing of the evaluation. LOL!!!
The driving simulator is damn fun la! I can get to crash like some drunkard whenever I want. WOOT!!!
ARGH!! I just got a call from my mum saying that KFC there is no breastmeat. NO BREASTMEAT YOU KNOW! I thought I heard something wrong. It's hardly lunchtime. AND THERE'S NONE?!! Not even one?!! How fucking ridiculous is that?!!
I feel very left out from my class. Like obviously! I'm the only girl in the class! What do you expect?! You all might think that it's a WOW! thing. But think about it. You can't talk to anyone about girls stuff. And why? Because they are ALL GUYS!! They talk about their guys stuff and sometimes, it gets uncomfortable for you. Sadly, you gotta accept it and listen. Then filter out whatever things they just said. I even feel left out from my FYP group. The guys discuss everything by themselves and TELL me whatever they have DECIDED. I thought in a group, you're supposed to discuss things TOGETHER and decide TOGETHER. I was so disappointed and fucked up until I didn't really talk to them the whole day. However, I did almost explode to one of them. I told him that you all left me out all the time and you didn't notice. The person who left out someone won't feel it. But, the person who is being left out can feel it. He kept quiet. It's true right? I can't stand a moment in that class. I don't understand why do I have to be the only girl in the class when others can have like about 2 or 3. -sighs
Alright I gotta do my assignment now. Yesterday the server was down and couldnt do a thing. I have to even skip fetching my bro back from the airport today. How sad is that?!! All because of them wanting to rush this assignment. Don't know for what.
the mug I'd actually studied like a mad woman for the past few days. Not at home, but in school. I was pretty psyched to enter the examination room and do the AEF paper today. Man that's the first! I guess what was running through my head was "I know how to do the paper (except for the theory part) as I've practiced like hell a million times". Ok the million was exaggerating. A few times is more like it. I really want to do well you know. My dream is to be an Aerospace Engineer. Does it sound rather impossible? I mean I'm a girl. So it's like maybe chauvinism would take place somehow? I was kindda worried when I had that ambition in mind. I just kept thinking if it's a wrong idea to make. Could someone just enlighten me?
Irene called me today when I got home not long ago and asked me about inverse matrix thing. She was trying so so hard to describe the problem but I just couldn't make out what was she talking about or should I say, what was the problem. I feel so guilty that I wasn't able to help her. LAOPO! REALLY SORRY!!! I hope you managed to solve the problem if it was in the paper today. Next time remember to do enough revision ok? (:
Oh ya! You know I studied till 8:30pm in school yesterday? I FEEL SO DARN HARDWORKING ALL OF A SUDDEN!!! Must be the "end of the year examination" thought that kept running through my head. It's a motivation that kept me going you know. Well I feel sorry for the asses who think that they can achieve astounding marks by not studying and slacking their way through.
My stomach is hurting me, yet again. God dammit man!!
I know I've been unreasonable. Very unreasonable, in fact. But sometimes, I really don't know how to be the person you want me to be. It's hard. I feel so stressed out about this motherfucking exams and have been studying during the day like a freaking nerd. All I want is a little bit of attention from you that's all. Care and concern maybe? Is that too much to ask for? I've been pushing myself so hard that my mum's been worried about my health. I know you're working hard too. But I've made it a point to call you when I'm taking a break. It seems like a big task to you somehow.
I hate girls who make themselves look like a "everybody wants me" when the fact is NOBODY wants her. Lose piece of shit.
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