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Wednesday, September 03, 2008

huge disappointment

Were you ever caught in a dilemma, not knowing whom to believe?

Well, I had been.

And it happened today.

I was told by someone I kind of trust about something.
Let's call her J.
I THOUGHT she trusted me, therefore she's letting me know what happened.
Then she asked me for help today and I called up someone else whom I felt that can help her.
Let's call that someone L.
While on the phone with L, he told me that it was a mistake.
I thought, well maybe J had mistaken.
Then I told L about something and he told me that the person who was so called 'involved' at that time was someone who was my dearest to me at a certain part of my life.
How can I doubt the person?
That person has been the kindest and caring someone.

So now, I really have no idea what to do, who to listen to and whatever.
Jeremy told me not to bother anymore.
I thought about it and yeah, I should not bother anymore.

L need not lie to me.
He was dear to me too.
Helped me numerous times due to some unneccesary happenings once in my life.
I wish L could have told me earlier about the 'mistake' I messaged him about.

I guess I trusted the wrong person again.
I wonder has J ever talked bad about me behind my back as she tends to backstab.
Terrible eh?
Well, all I did was to listen.

If you find the matter confusing, maybe you should read it again, and slowwwwllllyyy.
I'm disappointed, sad, confused.

This matter has greatly affect my mood today.
My main point today was to go out, spend time with Jeremy and just enjoy myself before I leave for Bintan, leaving him behind for 3 days.

Little did I know, it turned out badly.
Just that Jeremy didn't know.
I dared not tell him how I feel at present.

I just wished this happened earlier or that L would've told me earlier.

p.s L, if you know who you are, I don't blame you at all. You were nice to let me know today and make a trip down. In the end it was a stupid trip eh? If you were to plan on tagging my blog, I hope you will put as L regarding this matter.
I do not wish anyone to know the identities.

Labels: confused, dilemma, disappointed, sad

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