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Wednesday, June 03, 2009

politics

At first I wouldn't believe that my clinic has politics. Even if there is, it wouldn't be as much as the working world outside.
Until the last few days and today, I was totally convinced that there was.

I thought that my IC was a super cool and fun woman.
Little did I know, she turned out to be someone who is biased and sensitive.

It happened on friday when I was reprimanded by two IC (one mine and one another clinic).
All because of something I feel so small.
I was pretty sure it wasn't my senior who told me that the clinic downstairs is "just clearing tray".
If I didn't remember wrongly, it was their own people who told me that.
And I got scolded for saying that.
Like WHAT THE HELL.
Worse still, my senior was accused of saying that and thus, she got scolded as well.
I wonder up until now if it's my fault that she got scolded.
I feel terrible.

There's this new girl. Let's call her PL.
She is sweet to the max and really a very nice girl.
However her flaw is that she is FREAKINGLISH SLOW!!
She can't visualise and her memory is really really bad.
Mine is so much worse. Hers is worse worse.
I must say, I envy her patience.
Downstairs already don't want her, my IC die die want to keep her.
And why so? Is just because she is pretty.

She (IC) became her (PL) personal trainer and my senior and I? We were "kicked" here and there, feeling damn unwanted.
Just for that small thing on friday, we got this.
So that is called fairness?
So if PL were to do the same thing, will you treat her that way?
Or would you still shower her with love and compassion?

I wonder is my eyes going bad or that I trust people way too easily?

If this nonsense drags on further, I don't think I would want to work there anymore.
I don't want to work at a place where I don't feel happy and just feel like I'm being "kicked" around.

I'm not your your puppet and certainly not someone easily bullied.

i hope all these ends.....
i'm tired of all these shit...

9:29 PM